I Am Now A Statistic

The statistics are broadcast on the news every day. Unemployment is skyrocketing, jobs are hard to come by, and that the only thing not going up are salaries for the ones that actually have a job. So for 28 months I go to a job I don't like and to work for people that don't like me. I tell myself that any job in this economy is better than none, even a job where I am bullied by those less intellegent than I and am babysat by a boss who couldn't manage her way out of a paper bag. I go for the salary and the benefits, telling myself even though I am more miserable at this job than I have ever been, its good to have a job, a job with benefits.

Then in a flash, its gone. The job I hated with a seething passion, gone. I couldn't believe I no longer had the routine, the daily challenge of pushing back the bullies and not letting callers get me mad because they are mad. 28 months of my life forcing myself to go to a place that made my stomach hurt just for a paycheck. Now the job and the check are both gone.

The day started like any other. I woke up, studied, went to Weight Watchers and headed to work so I would be on time, like usual, at 3pm. By 5pm, I was headed home, last paycheck in hand, wondering what to do now. Its amazing how quick your life can change and how unprepared you are when it does. Where my life used to be navigating the waters of angry callers and angrier co-workers, it is now used to navigate government programs and unemployment. (That mess is worthy of a blog all its own and I will write about that adventure tomorrow)

I am now a month removed and can see that all things happen for a reason. I truly believe God took me out of that toxic environment and has great things in store, not least of which is finishing school. The challenge will be finances. However, I know that if we follow, God will provide. And he has. It just takes time and faith.

I used to be an an employee but for now, I am a statistic. I don't mind. God has my back and I am more than ok with that.